Remind me who I am

"Love Is A Decision"

These past several weeks the Lord has continued to show me His unwavering grace.

From weeks ago when my neurologist said "I have no freaking clue",as he walks out banging his head against the door way wall." 

My thoughts:Dude. All I wanted was a hug from you! 

I know you care and I know you've done everything you can think of.

Some things aren't meant to always understand. 

To the guy who thinks looks matters most:

You could be in an accident one day and wheelchair bound.

Are you going to still love that person enough to become a caregiver? 

If a person doesn't love Jesus then how on earth could they ever love me? 

I want someone who is going to love Jesus far greater then me.

I know all to well health can rob anyone, at any given time.

It doesn't matter who you are! 

For me I want to know that no matter how hard it  may get or how tough it is that they aren't going to leave.

Maybe I have a different outlook then most but that's reality.

You could have a child that is wheelchair bound...with no warning.

I've come to learn the heart doesn't fade unless you fall apart from Jesus. 

The heart stays.

The body goes.

Your going to miss out on some amazing people going solely by looks.

I will not apologize for my body jerking or my speech sounding "jerky".

As no one should! 

Embrace it! 

Give the Lord glory...he's using YOU!

I however will do everything in my power to stand up and be a voice for others that maybe going through the same thing.

If you think I am just going to sit along the sidelines. 

Good-bye! 

Be fearless!

I guarantee you that there is someone out there that needs to hear your story.

Realize that your story is being beautifully written...

If I understood the Lord's plan then I'd never need his help.

But I don't and I'm not going to pretend as if I do.

My week ended with teaching three and four year old's how to bowl.

Saying good-bye to not just my co-teacher but a really close friend.

If I had my way she would stay my co-teacher forever!

But the Lord has plans for her and she is just following His plans with such grace and love.

While I am so heartbroken I feel so blessed that the Lord allowed our paths to cross.

I know that the Lord will continue to allow her to bless life's. 

Pray for her as good-byes are never easy.

I watched her go around tucking each child in today during nap.

Whispering "I love you!" to each one of them.

The children life's have been greatly impacted by her love for them. 

I know it's our prayer for these kids that they will grow up loving the Lord.

Loving all people. Following the Lord's will for their life's just as Amanda is doing.

There is nothing sweeter then getting invited by a small child to their Kindergarten graduation!


  

Be that light to someone having compassion towards all people.

Loving them the way Christ has loved us. 

I challenge you to love people for their hearts all the days of your life!

Last but not least. 

Today I myself (After months and months of prayer) decided to allow the door to close medically speaking.

Trusting that the Lord will hold me in His hands days to come...

As our neurologist wanted to send us to one of the top leading neurologist in the United States, I declined.

We want a cure. We want answers.

However we will wait on the Lord to lead and direct.

We had an appointment scheduled for 2018 however my heart has (the Lord) lead me to know the right decision for many reasons. 

The importance in sharing this publicly is to say follow the Lord.
No matter how hard or difficult it may be.

He knows your heart better then you.

Trust Him.
And find the GOOD in the more difficult times.